The More You Know

The Day Of Love

It's February 12th.. the day before the day before the dreaded day of love. Let me be clear... I do not hate Valentines Day, I just hate the impact it has on everyone, single and attatched alike. For the past week I've been talking my friends of ledges and these are successful, smart, intelligent people. The kind of people who stand up in the word and make differences and shit.. and yet somehow this stupid day makes them question every desicion they've made in the last 365 days.

It's not that phone calls asking me if 'I should have called him one more time' aren't always nice to recieve but.. this coming from someone who is so strong, sure of themselves, and otherwise perfectly in contol of everything else is a little disconcerting. It seems that even those who have their lives in order somehow feel a litle sensitive around this time of year. My theory is that its all about timing... Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years have only really passed about two months ago. And we all know the added pressure to 'have a date' on those wonderfully miserable holidays. Where every relative we have (who we mysteriously never see untill the end of every year) asks us where our boyfriends are or when we are thinking of settling down. Thereby forcing us to think that maybe we aren't as complete as we had thought we were.. right? Well.. I feel that after New Years Eve is over (lets not forget about the New Years Kiss) we only get two months to recoperate before we are forced once again to be in a position to explain our 'single-ness'. Not enough mental rehabilitation time if you ask me. But c'est la vive. We'll do it all over again next year. The best advice that I can offer anyone interested in recieving it is: Valentine's Day is only as important as you make it out to be. Don't fret... after all, you'll have all of the 2009 Holidays to feel miserable. *Cheers*

Drama-tastic!

They say that women are the dramatic ones, and yet somehow I keep dating the most sensitive, puddle of tears whenever I can't answer my phone guys that exist. I had to post the picture of this ridiculous text message I received about an hour ago. Keep in mind, this is a guy I haven't laid eyes on in over a year and have only reconnected with in the past couple of weeks. He called me last night but I was in the middle of a movie with a friend of mine. He left a message asking if I was "Available".. so weird. So I didn't call back, besides I was otherwise occupied and I'm not about to drop my shit cause some dude is bored and I happen to become 'available'.

Who even says that to anyone anyway? 'Are you available?' Whatever. I remembered this guy being a little 'passionate' about things but it seems that time has taken his emotions to a whole different level.

What ever happened to people just being regular and setting up a time and a place to hang out and then following through on plans? It seems that calling someone at some random time when you're bored and not getting them to drop their lives to come entertain you warrants sad/angry text messages the next day. Lame. Guess who's not getting a call back? *Cheers*

The Best Moment In Grammy History

I can't tell you how excited I am about Blink 182 finally coming to their senses and reuniting. They are such talented musicians and seem to bring the best out of eachother. No matter what bands they have been in independantly they always seem to shine the brightest when they're creating with one another.. FUCK YEA!!!!! BLINK IS BACK!!!!!!!! WOOOO!!!!!*cheers*

Crystal Clear

As if this past year hasn't been a journey down self discovery enough, these past two weeks have really proven everything that I've slowly been learning. See, last Tuesday my Aunt became sick. It's one of those things that you swear will never happen to you or anyone you love but somehow.. happened. At first I took the role of 'person who has it together so that everyone else can freak out' and it made everything allot easier on everyone else. Especially my Aunt. So I had no problems being that person.
Then these past few days I have been the one to take her places, and listen to her vent, and even though the prognosis is excellent it made me realize how much I would hate to lose anyone in my life.
It also made me see the true colors of some people who should have behaved/thought differently then they ended up doing. But I suppose that's just something that ends up happening whenever there is a catastrophe in any ones life.
Anyway, this whole experience has made me really open and willing to embrace everyone around me, instead of keeping that wall up so high they can barely see over it.
Here's to every ones health, love, and happiness! *cheers*

Next In Line Please!

Today was an interesting day. It started out with my usual stagger down the hall into the kitchen where I was met by my first daily chore, followed almost immediately by my morning cafe con leche.
A little later, cafe con leche in hand, I made my bed and checked my emails as usual. A phone call interrupted me though.. it was a friend of mine who started about some romantic problem he wanted my guidance on but had to get back to work, so he told me he would call me back in ten minutes. Then, as I'm checking my email a window pops up.. another friend of mine.. with a romantic problem that she wanted my advice on. Not one to brush anyone off.. I listened intently and gave her the best input I could. No less then two minutes after I ended the conversation with her then my other friend calls me back.. he went into the issues a little but I decided this was a conversation better had in person. And since it was getting close to feeding time I suggested we meet for lunch.
As we ate, he told me all about it, from beginning to end.. and I was truly touched that he chose me to open up to. We spoke about it for a good while, and we then went to the mall to run an errand I had.
The funny thing about the problems that both my friends had was that not only were both of their problems exactly the same.. but I myself am going through the exact same thing. It was so strange... I mean what are the chances that you and two other people are going through pretty much the exact same thing.. almost down to the day. Kinda freaky. You got any weird stories?? *Cheers*

In Through The Nose, Out Through The Mouth

Well.. the year has officially begun and the end-of-the-year festivities have died down. All the friends that visited have now gone home.. and things are slowly getting back to normal. I wanted to end this shitty year with a bang and I think I accomplished it, in abudance. In the past four days I think I've slept approximately 6 hours. (With the exeption of today.. I'm staying home to recoperate)I always forget how much I enjoy just being out in the world.. seeing people, dancing. My usual circle aren't very adventurous so I usually have to stay in and do the same thing every weekend.. which is why I love it when our friends from out of town come to visit, it gives me someone to go out with. And go out I did.. I took full advantage of out out of town friends.. god love them. Anyway, before I lose complete control of my train of thought.. let me get back to the topic. Though I'm relieved that 2008 is over, and I am looking at the begining of the new year as a new sheet of paper to be written on.. I can't help but feel a little pressure. Last night I was thinking about all of the things I want to accomplish this year and I suddenly felt my throat tighten up.. after a brief freak out I decided.. lets look at things one day at a time instead of the whole 365 at once. *Cheers*